For a break.

^ Weird show..

I need to find myself another ALIAS. all that wig and accents and places ard the world. And jennifer garrner. damnn funnay.

If music be the food of…

“let loose of what you cannot control, serenity will come to you”. thanks tvmobile!
Like what ferd quek said abt anger being a poisoning of the self; Desire is poison as well. And according to shakespeare, it runs after you. I agree. It does.

“And my desires, like fell and cruel hounds, E’er since pursue me.”
^ the notes mention that shakespeare was alluding to the myth of Actaeon and Diana. Actaeon saw Diana naked, Diana transmogrified him into a stag. His dogs ate him up. = “Olivia is being cruel to [Orsino], and thereby making his desires for her destroy him.

To mentally shield yourself from it, would be inhuman. Being overpowered by your desires will jeopardize your capacity to function. I opted for the middle road. Admitting you have it. But learning to bridle it; in case it compels you into making impetuous decisions – the feeling of the moment drives many to stupidity.

“Now, I’ve been licking my wound. But the venom seeps deeper, deeper, deeper”

Which reminds me of EE. The Dying Animal.. Yeats’s “Sailing to
Byzantium”: “Consume my heart away; sick with desire/And fastened to a dying animal/
It knows not what it is.”

The CA song above words it well enough. “The pain of this slow burn”. Have you not desired for someone before? That ember in your chest, the weight of your head, your immobile arms. For that moment. Seemingly interminable.

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, But desire fulfilled is a tree of life.” (Proverbs 13:12)

Less talk and more action.
Sense of urgency.
My system’s preferred fuel is melancholy.

This is the moment in your life where you need to step it up.
Why are japanese films so drenched with anomie and alienation?
When I start. There shall be no stopping.

love, play on,
Vbec